i suppose this time was my last time to see her alive, she was frailly lying on the bed, although morphine was constantly injected into her body, she still could not help giving a groan of pain... she was too hurt and too frail to talk, i looked around, people kept talking. Stroking her hair and forehead, I could not stand and dropped tears quietly. She sometimes shakily and slowly raised her hands, people said she was tending to pull off those cannuas on her face, so I lightly pressed he hands... and whispered by her ears " grandma, don't be afraid, i know you are suffering the pang, i am praying for you. Please bear for a few days more, and you will be set free from the pang...". she seemed to try to say somthing, but the voice was so blurry and quiet so i couldn't understand, I looked around, people still kept talking. Turning round and looking at her face, "it's a pity that none has the priesthood in this room... or grandmom could have a priesthood blessing... " I was thinking sadly... 

people left the room but me , they called me to leave to the restaurant for lunch, I could not stand anymore and cried to her " grandmom.. i am leaving... please..please take care.. i will come back to see you again.. " the nurse came in and asked her " your granddaughter is here, do you know? ", suddenly she  said quietly and toughly " yes.. i do.."  I walking back to her and whispered with tears " I promise you i will come back to see you.. " 

i suppose this time was my last time to see her alive....     

You never know what life is going to give you.

 

Suddenly, I got a new job, before that, no resumes were sent out from me. Now I have to wake up earlier every morning and go through the traffic jam to work, nothing bad, but I am still trying to get used to it...

 

My boss is a topest stylist in Taiwan. As an assistant of her, I got to know the life of famous people isn't easy, they are always trying to maintain their high profile in every section, such as their cars, clothes, and so on. My boss always has GUCCI bag on her hand, she drives Benz, and drinks the bottle water which costs over US$10 per bottle, but she thinks those stuff are very expensive. She is easy to get mad and lose her patience, i guess there is too much pressure on her or her EQ is low.  She likes to tell people how awesome she is, that's what she would repeats several times everyday, be honestly, I don't hate it, but feel weird and interested. From my side to see her, she probably feels lonely, very lonely, for it's too hard to find a true heart for her.

 

Her ex-assistant told me she was very mean and not easy-going, but i think my bueiness is not making good friend with her but doing well on my job, plus, i found that she is not a bad person but just kinda difficult, that's ok, that's a good way to train my patience, hehe... oh good luck muomuo.....

this is my office

Making women more pretty is a very interesting challenge, there are some ways to make it, skincare is slow but maintains longer, makeup is fast but lasts short. I chose to do makeup because I like painting, haha... no matter how they look originally, I still have to try my best to paint and make them shining! the most popular questions girls ask are " could you make my eyes bigger two times?" and " could you make my face look thiner? " the answer is " OK,  I will try my best! "

This girl is my good friend, she came over and asked me the same questions ^_^ ,  ok ! i will try my best!
 

This Saturday is the Chinese New Year!! yay~~~ so my family is going back to the south Taiwan for the holidays! btw, this year is DOG year, hehe. if you want to know how Taiwanse people celebrate Chines New Year, check here http://www.gio.gov.tw/taiwan-website/5-gp/culture/lunar-NY/ 
HAPPY CHINESE YEW YEAR!

 

So I was born today several years ago,

today is my commemoration day

but I don't feel like to think like this

because it should not be a day for me

there is nothing i should be treated specially,

because i didn't work any hard for the day i was born

 

my mother gave a birth to me today several years ago,

today is a commemoration day of her suffering

I would like to think like this,

because it should be a day for her

there are so manyreasons she should be treated specially,

because she went through so much pain for me today,

so

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so my birthday is almost to the end

thanks my sweet friends for doing something special for me today and yesterday,

i love you guys!

no cake today, for no reasons, I like cakes, but not today.

well, my mom cooked some noodles as dinner, nice~

in chinese culture, troditionally, noodles play a role as birthday cake,  

so i am pretty fine with just noodles.

 

anyway, what's my wish? umm..

 

 

 ok, so today is my birthday,

 

Rita has sent me a card just like she usually did before she left to the states,

i guess she also told some of my friends earlier,

so Steve and James said "happy birthday" to me online, nice~

Kev promised me that he would record a song for me as a birthday gift,

man, i am looking forward to it so bad! lol

Nadir, he wrote a poetry as a congrats, oh..a romantic poetry~

Sixsun, that's impressed me the most,

he still remembers my birthday, every year, without my reminding, sweet~

and... I found something really make me touched...

there is a little mark on the calendar, that's my mom marked it,

she had never really remembers my birthday before, ^_^

one of my best friend- Amber, she always remembers mine,

coz hre is 24th, haha... we used to celebrate our birthday together,

but this year we said hapy birthday to each other online, she is in the states...

anyway, i am happy, and happy birthday tp me! thank you mom!

I  am not a good kid, but i will try to be harder!