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July 23 last late night, i got a answer from Lord...last late night, i got a answer from Lord...
I had been very confused about my future, which way i should go, which things i can do, that kinda stuff.. Last week i w
 ent to meet a friend and saw a movie together, After the movie, I told her what I was concerned about, "have you prayed for it yet??" she asked, mm... never really seriously do this...honestly.So I decided to do this, in serious way. But somehow I could not make it, it's way hard to concentrate my attention to pray, too many things could occure to me and I would not know what I was praying about... that happened all the time! it's kinda frustrating....
And last night, shooting down the pc, lying down and praying, I tried my best to focus. In fact, I was suffering a headache then. And I kept talking to Heavenly Father and asking him some question; I am usually not the one who is that sensitive the sense any hints from God like Rita is, but I longed to know! a thinking just poped in "oh~ Father, if the answer is YES, make my headache stop right away" in the same moment i told myself"oh..come on, that's so dump to think so..." Suddenly, my headache stopped! I was... totally shocked! Not really sure about that though... I tried not to think that was just coincident, So I asked again.. "oh Father, if that is true..." ouch! i felt pain on my head! "OK OK! father, i got it i got it!" and the headache stopped again....
After that, I felt complicated, happy for getting the answer, shocked for what just happened, nervous about what I got.... Father is really there and listens! my faith is so weak, but he takes it and still accompanies me... I am not talking to air! i should repent and keep faith!
September 27 about "Immature"A friend said i was immature,
well.. it's not a big deal for me,
no one is completely mature,
and should not be 100% mature,
it's not got to do with neither "Age" nor "Personaltiy",
In my opinion, an absolutely mature man is not lovely at all.
I sometimes laugh or smile about my immature manner or others',
I can't imagine how boring the world will become
if all were totally mature....
so please do not judge others "immature"
for the one who judges so is not really mature either.
"Being immature is NOT guilty"!!!!
April 28 Too Late We always have so many " it's too late "We always thought time would wait for us,
We always thought we would have chances to redo, to atone,
But guess what? we are always not that lucky.
So we need to appreciate what are in our hands
when it's not too late.... hold tightly...
April 18 The Passion of The ChristLast night I watched the movie "The Passion of The Christ" which I had wanted to see since it's a lot of points of what i read in the holy Bible had been linked together, point by point, when those points were linked into a line, my tears welled up in my eyes. Suddenly I understant a lot of things which i didn't get, I understand why Hevenly Father calls Jesus Christ as his belove son, when all of us were in the meeting up on the heaven, only Jehovah stood out and accepted this kind of result on earth. how brave did he need to be so he could take this mission? I must be the little chicken spirit behind other spirits. Obeidence of the Chirst is so unbelievible, when he was parying to hevenly father in the gardon of Gethsemane, even thouhg he was extremely afraid and hurt, but he still chose to obey heavly father's will. The process of his Atonement in this movie lets me understand that how difficult and tough the atonement that Jesus took for us is, It cost Christ's blood and life. How little I have done for him and for others... the Sacrament is for remembering Christ. I have to repent for taking it for granted. the Sacrament seems too easy for us to get, but that's Jesus's flesh and blood! one of my church friends said if you imagine the stuff coverd with the white clothe on the table was Jesus Christ's body, then you would never take the Sacrament for granted.
the frame above touched my heart, I wish i be able to carry the heavy cross with Jesus, if I could lighten his burden.. Although this movie is not from church, it still brings a strong spiritual feeling to me. thanks this movie! April 06 choicesPeople always choose the easier way to go, closer thing to touch,
oh i am tired, coz I chose a harder way to go, a further thing to touch
so I deserved much more frustration from it
oh i am tired, oh Father, I told you that i would take whatever you gave
but now, look at me, i am still there and never move
do you also cry with me? also smile with me? also walk with me?
let me know you are here with me and proud of me?
coz I have been trying so hard and really hard
and i will keep trying ... not to choose the same way
March 19 life animeFebruary 26 Endure To The End And now, my beloved brethren and sisters, after ye have gotten into this strait and narrow path of the Temple marrage, i would ask if all is done?
Behold, I say onto you, Nay; for ye have not come thus far save it were by word of Chirst with unshaken faith in him and your spouses, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.
Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope and a love of God and of your spouses.
Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ and your spouses, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father:
Ye shall have eternal marrages.
I can go to stay in yours. A conversation between Hevenly Father and a young divorsed woman who had been really exhausted for taking care of her seven children at home -----
I was looking up at the night sky with tearful eyes " Oh~ Father, I can't make it tonight, coz I am too tired to face all I am facing... I cant go home and take care of those kids on my own. May I go to yours for just one night? I promise that I will come back tomorrow morning..." "No, my daughtor, you cant come over here yet right now, if you came, and would never
 want to go back to yours. However, I can go to stay in yours."February 23 freshness v.s staleness Freshness makes things lovelyFreshness makes people easygoing
Freshness makes the conversation interesting
Freshness makes food delicious
Freshness makes me curious
Staleness makes things boring
Staleness makes people mean and difficult
Staleness makes the conversation run dry
Staleness makes food unappetizing
Staleness makes me wanna run away... What's in between?
Holding on the same attitude
Bearing getting unfresh
Pretending to be interested
Less smile and laugher
Maybe a little bit stressed... That's how I just got tonight... January 25 colors 1/21/06 in JovanCat
red is happiness,
orange is jiucy
yellow is a great song
green is healthy
blue is sadness
indigo is china blue
purple is nobelness
they are all in a rainbow
but there are still a lot of colors not in it
but in people...
Ma, you are grey or silver,
Rita, you are pink,
Andy, you are ivory,
Chris, you are blackish green,
mom and Alisha , you are red,
Kev, you are brown,
Trudy, you are white,
Nathan, you are baby blue,
Nadir, you are greyish blue,
Eric and Mei, you are maroon,
someone who I saw in the train, you are flaxen,
those colors don't mean anything, don't mean personality,
and I have no idea why they are those colors to me,
some people would give me colors, some would not,
what about my color? haha...
it's just like... fortune teller, they always cant tell their own furtune...
i don't know what color is mine lah~
so as a little girl, i had a weird question about colors,
and it still maintains in my mind so clear--
there are four rooms, actually they couldn't be called rooms but person cells,
and each cell has been painted by four different colors--flame-red, grass green, baby blue and yellowish brown, on the floor,the walls,the ceiling, the fittings, evey corners, everywhere.
there is only one small window hanging high up on the walls in each cell,
the window is toooo high to touch, so you only can tell day and night from light.
now, if you were going to be put into one of them for 20 days or longer,
and you could choose which one you would stay, so what color you would pick?
for me, I have never changed the color that i have chose since i got this weird question,
yellowish brown.
in my memory, the only one person i asked this question is my dad,
in my memory, his answer was "wu liao~" (LAME in my mother language.... )
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released. I had never cried for any movies or tv programs, but this time I could not help and cried a lot. Even now my heart is still not very still.... How could those people be that cruel? how could hevenly father stand to see his belove son be tortured like that? a lot of questions were asked in my mind. Hevenly father didn't show up in this movie, I could not see how painful he would suffer. However, I saw Maria, Jesus's mother, as a mother, who can bear her child be treated like that? i cant imagine.... what i also cant imagine is the extreme pain Jesus was suffering.... |
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